Tony is in the business of war. He was born to it, turned a calloused ear to it, reveled in it. But Ricki's and Peter's world is infinitely colder than his ever was. He killed from afar; Peter knows the names and histories of the men he allows to die.
"We tried. We really did, we were supposed to. Both of them were being moved at night; she tripped, she screamed, she was shot. He stopped to go back for the body."
He admits, scrubbing a hand over his face.
"George watched it happen. He said he thought Leamas had known. That he'd turned back not for the corpse, but to face the guns rather than come home to us."
He strokes Peter's hair. All of this is really starting to sink in, and he doesn't know how to process it yet. He remembers the things Ricki had once said, that Tony not trusting Peter would destroy them eventually. But looking at him now, at the doubts he has, Tony only knows he wants to keep him close.
"An abducted civilian walking at night through enemy territory, discovering her lover was a double agent, after a soft interrogation? I'm just shocked he didn't think to sedate her."
"What do you wanna bet he already knows what you're really doing here?"
Tony wonders sometimes if he is still being groomed as an informant. But because, as he's said, his only loyalty is to himself it doesn't matter much to him.
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Date: 2012-11-29 11:40 pm (UTC)Tony is in the business of war. He was born to it, turned a calloused ear to it, reveled in it. But Ricki's and Peter's world is infinitely colder than his ever was. He killed from afar; Peter knows the names and histories of the men he allows to die.
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Date: 2012-11-29 11:53 pm (UTC)He admits, scrubbing a hand over his face.
"George watched it happen. He said he thought Leamas had known. That he'd turned back not for the corpse, but to face the guns rather than come home to us."
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Date: 2012-11-29 11:59 pm (UTC)He strokes Peter's hair. All of this is really starting to sink in, and he doesn't know how to process it yet. He remembers the things Ricki had once said, that Tony not trusting Peter would destroy them eventually. But looking at him now, at the doubts he has, Tony only knows he wants to keep him close.
"I'm so...so sorry."
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:02 am (UTC)Tears are welling up.
"This neo-Nazi relic. He looked at me after it was over and said 'well, only a Jew,' and smiled, and I just."
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:05 am (UTC)"Is he giving you guys what you need?"
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:07 am (UTC)He admits, just wrecked.
"We have saved so many lives with him. I know the every face and name of their service."
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:10 am (UTC)He kisses Peter's temple.
"You're saving lives, Peter."
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:11 am (UTC)"Leamas was a damn good spy."
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:14 am (UTC)But he takes Peter to the sofa and lays them down with Peter's back against his chest.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:16 am (UTC)Head resting on Tony's shoulder.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:25 am (UTC)Tony is claiming him for the night.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:28 am (UTC)Eyes closing.
"God, Tony."
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:31 am (UTC)He tries to rein in his usual ramblings.
"What can I do? Or maybe I should ask, what shouldn't I do?"
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:32 am (UTC)Biting the inside of his cheek.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:34 am (UTC)He rests his chin on his shoulder.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:38 am (UTC)Admitting, stretching.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:39 am (UTC)He grins, knowing full well but enjoying the chance to tease him.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:40 am (UTC)Illustrating with a smile.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:43 am (UTC)Tony wonders sometimes if he is still being groomed as an informant. But because, as he's said, his only loyalty is to himself it doesn't matter much to him.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:54 am (UTC)Eyes closing.
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:58 am (UTC)He has the lights dimmed.
"I'm not just some civilian."
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Date: 2012-11-30 12:59 am (UTC)He insists, quietly.
"In my world, you are."
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Date: 2012-11-30 01:02 am (UTC)It's important to hear this; Peter rarely talks about his fears.
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Date: 2012-11-30 01:04 am (UTC)"Don't say that."
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